Kody Brown acquired pensive about the splitting of his “big” plural relatives through the most recent episode of Sister Wives — and questioned whether he could truly be monogamous with Robyn Brown.
“It’s a bizarre area to be, exactly where you experienced this big spouse and children and it is a major detail,” Kody, 54, mentioned in a confessional on Sunday, September 10. “And now, we’ve bought this tiny detail likely on which is not unimportant and it is gorgeous but it is not huge like this other 1. Can I change?”
He ongoing: “I really don’t want to sit and recognize as a monogamist [but] if you are what you do, then what are you when you never? Can I be a monogamist? Can I manage this? I mean, this is lesser.”
Kody was remarking on his division with Janelle Brown immediately after the now-exes had a blowout combat that aired a person 7 days prior. Even though driving with his pal Nathan, Kody admitted that he was amazed by the extraordinary turn his relationships took.
“Stupid issues go via my head, like, ‘I would like I wouldn’t have performed that, I would like we wouldn’t have at any time gotten married, I would like I could go back in time.’ … I just hardly ever foresaw this going on to me,” he advised his pal. “And I by no means foresaw my response to this happening to me.”
Janelle, 54, was Kody’s second spouse pursuing his marriage to Meri Brown in 1990. He went on to spiritually exchange vows with Christine Brown and spark a romance with Robyn, 44, eventually opting to divorce Meri, 52, and legally tie the knot with Robyn as a substitute.
Kody and Meri ongoing their non secular union soon after his 2014 wedding to Robyn, but their struggles were commonly documented on Sister Wives above the decades. In January, Kody and Meri confirmed their split.
News of the separation came shortly after Janelle uncovered to TLC viewers in December 2022 that she and Kody experienced been separated for some time. Christine, 51, was the first of Kody’s wives to depart the loved ones in 2021.
As he mirrored on the state of his fractured relatives, Kody instructed the digicam on Sunday that he “was so optimistic about dwelling plural marriage” when his journey began. “Everybody appeared satisfied. And they’re not now, nobody’s content now,” he said. “It’s heartbreaking. It was a desire and now it’s gone. It’s this kind of a mess proper now.”
Alongside with sensation sad about his interactions ending, Kody admitted he was also becoming offended. “I want to improve horns right now so undesirable. I want to say necessarily mean things, I want to be a jackass. … I labored so tough to do what was right,” he continued. “And when you eliminate that and you come to feel like you’ve unsuccessful even to God, you get in this position where by it’s like, ‘Well, I really should just be the satan I assume I am now.’”
Kody’s mood continued to shift as he included, “I loathe my existence suitable now.”
Robyn, meanwhile, opened up about how Kody’s breakups with his other wives have afflicted her very own romantic relationship. “We’ve hardly ever experienced as quite a few issues as we’re obtaining proper now in our marriage,” she confessed. “He’s suspicious of any individual staying disloyal to him, he’s directing that at me. … I really do not actually identify him proper now and I’ve by no means witnessed him like this ahead of.”
Robyn reported she remains “invested in” their family members. “So for him to question it … feels a tiny bit like a dealbreaker of our marriage,” she additional. “This is not what our marriage settlement is. It would certainly devastate me if he resolved to go away me. … I know he would regret it, leaving almost everything at the rear of.”
Sister Wives airs on TLC Sundays at 10 p.m. ET.